Friday, April 25, 2008

I'm a million different people from one day to the next...

I keep wondering when I'm going to feel like a "real" adult. When does the switch flip? Is it after you get married? Have a career? Have kids? None of which I have yet experienced. Is that why, when visiting my married friends, I miss out on the "adult" conversations? I strive to get away from the goofy persona that has followed me my whole life. It's nice to be the eccentric, fun, wisecracking friend every once in awhile. However, I wish it didn't define me. The people I call my best friends, that are in my own age group, don't come to me for life advice. That is what I long for. To be the friend that is wise, who understands life. I would like to be the adult friend for once. I have bills, I have responsibility, I have struggled with things that some couldn't even imagine. Yet, inside I still feel 12 years old. Awkward. I should feel comfortable around people my own age, right?

4 comments:

Tracy said...

I have pondered your questions for a long time.... I really hadn't thought about "when did I become a real adult" after much thought I think for me it hit when we bought the house. Not sure why that was the magic year.... Good Luck! On a lighter note, I think of you as an adult!

Anonymous said...

you are my wise, good advice-giving friend! and i will always come to you for your wisdom...you know to fulfill your wish for that and for me to get good advice. oh goodness Flo, i love you! you are my bestest friend!

~Courtney

Jstrohmeyer said...

Flo, I don't think any of us really become "adults". We simply take on more responsibilities. I think it's great that you keep your fun personality. Many of us lose that joy in our lives when we think we have to be serious to earn our keep in this world.

Anonymous said...

Well...I can tell you that the grown-up switch doesn't flip after you get married. As for the career and the children, I'm not sure since I haven't done either of those. I'm still waiting for the day when I wake up and feel like an adult instead of goofy kid who happens to have a husband, a house and two cats. Hmm... I'll keep you posted.