These decisions we make.  They reflect off of everyone around us. They push us, like dominoes. Falling into one another. Waking up, only when it's too late and we've hit the ground.

I keep tellin' myself, I'm unaffected.

Impossible.

Late

Last night, I had a dream that I was fighting with my father.  He and I used to be closer, used to have that easy flowing conversation. Not so much anymore, our conversations seem to be a little forced.  It's hard living hundreds of miles away, to connect through a telephone. Hell, it's hard to stay connected to the people that are in my own zip code.

I think that dreams tend to have some meaning to them, whether subtle hints at things we should be doing differently or deeper underlying codes that we are never meant to decipher. 

Problem is, I don't know which category mine fall into.

Autumn

blurb

While drowning in a sea of regret
My emotions are what rise to the surface

Please and Thank you

What happened to good old fashioned manners? My roommate just started rifling through the Sunday paper, that Mark purchased, all while blocking the television show I happened to be watching.
Is it so difficult to ask " Excuse me, is this yours? Do you mind if I take a section?"

Trust me, this is not the most difficult thing I have to deal with concerning co-habitation with others. However, it did irk me. Is this just another one of those signs that I am getting old and overly sensitive?

Eyes Wide Open

I've decided that kids are mini-genuises.  Scary smart.  Powerful creatures, who if terribly disturbed, could take over the world.

I'm not kidding.


I've been babysitting for the past couple weeks, for a 3 1/2 year old and a 6 year old.  I feel as if my intelligence is being questioned on a regular basis.

It's not a calming feeling.

Feelin' Thirty

I want a tattoo.
I want to dye my hair blonde or black or pink...
I want to go sky diving.
I want to own a coffee shop.
I want to move to New York or Italy or Georgia or ...
I want to drive an ostentatious Hummer, just once.
I want to be a food critic.
I want to go to Vegas.
I want a close relationship with God.
I want to be a song writer
I want to learn how to play guitar.
I want to speak without consequence.
I want twins.
I want to be a doctor.
I want to run marathons.
I want to see my grandmother again.
I want to be best friends with my sister and brothers.
I want to live in the mountains.
I want to be a mentor.
I want to rescue animals.
I want to paint.
I want to live forever.
I want.